An obsessive-compulsive episode.

I rarely consider OCD (Obsessive-compulsive disorder) to be a hindrance, heck I often forget I have it. I guess we are all creatures of habit, and when you have grown up with something you don’t question it, I didn’t even realise I had half of the ‘symptoms’. Yet there are times when you are unfortunately reminded of the reality.

For me my obsessive compulsive tendencies come out when I am in a stressful situation, or if I have been over-thinking something. It can vary in intensity, from a nagging voice in the back of my mind to an overpowering distraction. Today it was the latter. You know the saying “A tidy house is a tidy mind”? Well it’s true you know, at least it is for me. I tried to ignore it, I tried to shut everything out around me and focus on the work but I failed. The longer I ignored everything the longer it felt as if my head was swimming; it was so bad I felt sick.

Perhaps procrastination and obsessive tendencies share the same part of the brain, because my room wasn’t overly untidy to begin with. Nonetheless I succumbed to the constant nagging from my sub-conscience, and I set about putting everything in order ruthlessly. It’s stupid I know, but after I had remade my bed, hoovered, and squared everything away I felt so much better. The whole time there was this ‘Everything in it’s place’ vibe going through my head, and everything got clearer the tidier everything was. How strange is that?!

I wonder who else suffers from this curse, any of my subscribers perhaps? Or anyone reading this post. As far as I know it isn’t just cleaning, it can be over-thinking to the point where you are obsessing, feeling the urge to clean yourself over and over again, worrying that someone can hear what your thinking, and most commonly of all the paranoia that ‘something’ bad is going to happen. When you look at it all it seems rather ridiculous, but I assure you that mental ticks like these can get you in quite a state. But I’m not crazy or nothing, just know that.

Maybe I shouldn’t have written this post, you’re all going to think I’m a weirdo (if you haven’t reached that conclusion already).

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One response to “An obsessive-compulsive episode.”

  1. mandy says :

    Son, the most intelligent of people are effected by OCD and other neurological maladies…..perhaps thats the price one pays for sporting a cranium that considers, capitulates, questions, coherently and incoherently, subjectively and objectively wants to understand and know why…..Its a combination of being locked inside ones own thoughts and mind for longer than is natural to it, or to quote you ‘not looking up from the pavement once in a while’ and just having those wanton genes that you have had the misfortune to inherit. It is, and can be, quite an unsettling experience, but it reminds us that we are actually fallible, and at the mercy of our own minds and bodies when we least want to be! It also reminds us that we are alive!!
    As a fellow sufferer, I salute you….you recognized it and understood it for what it is……………..its a glitch in your matrix son…..you know what triggered it, so avoid the antagonism of that situation if you can.
    Love you my boy, eat more honey waffles and chill some xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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